Life Conversations

 Sometime when you have a conversation like I had today with my boyfriend Seth, it is just best to get it down on paper! So I'm gonna tell y'all about it!

So today I went to Seth's house to hang out with him for the first time in a week because I have been working my life away! I worked 6 days straight! The day started off alright! I just kinda relaxed while he finished up his schoolwork because he is taking a summer class in order to fulfill his minor for Architecture!
Anyways, we were having a lovely time when we started talking about the future and our plans and how they may not work out the way we have planned! Unfortunately he said something to the affect of "..... we are going to have to see if this works out and that's why I'm waiting....." Well of course that upset me very much because I thought that he was saying that he didn't want to be with me and that he was ready to end it and honestly it broke my heart just thinking about it! I grabbed my stuff and told him that I wanted to go home! He said, "Ok!" and then realized what I was doing and that I was upset so he tried to stop me from leaving. Unfortunately, I am very stubborn and was already moving towards the door before he could stop me! I got out to my car and I really broke down! I couldn't have actually driven anywhere for quite some time and out comes Seth to talk to me! He comes around to the passenger's side and knocks on the window but I'm sobbing and can't find my voice then he comes around to my driver's side and knocks on the window! I muster up enough strength to say that the door is open. He asks me a few questions like what is wrong? and I take my ring off that he gave me for our year anniversary and give it to him and tell him that he has broken my heart but that is all I can say because I am still sobbing. He asks if he can get in the car with me and I say yes. For a while we just sit in silence and I cry because I think that he is pretty much saying that he isn't sure that this is going to work out and I just don't know if I can hear that! Once I calm down, he begins to talk and I tell him that he just broke my heart by telling me pretty much that he doesn't want me anymore and doesn't know if our relationship will work out! He goes on to say that he has doubts but not about whether or not we will work out but whether or not we will be able to do things in the time frame that we hoped to! He apologizes for hurting me so and tells me that he always wants me and that maybe his words did not come out the way they should have! And he says that I have doubts too! I say no, not this he loves me. I doubted that he wants to be with me because he has not been telling me lately that he loves me and wants to be with me! I explain to him and he finally understands that even though I know that he loves me and wants only me, I still need to hear it! I need to know that he does feel that way and be confirmed since he almost told me that he didn't want me anymore.
All in all, we came to the understanding that we both need to be more honest with one another and understand that things may not work out the way we want them to but we still want each other!

So I think that covers everything! Thanks for listening guys! I just needed to get that down on paper!

New Piercing!

Today Ciara and I went down to Anderson and I got my nose pierced!!! and she got her industrial done.  I now have my ears pierced, my cartilage, nose, and my belly button.  I debating getting my second hole on my ears just because I love earrings.  I'm one of the people that likes simple.  So right now in my first whole I have gold balls that are really cute and in the second one I probably do some sort of thing that just sits on my ear..... like a snowman, or christmas tree, or anything else.  Ugh!! Maybe I'll do that sometime soon.  And for Ciara's 20th birthday which will be in August of this coming year we are getting our inner ear pierced that little section that's attached to your head.  Its called your tragus.  We are kinda obsessed with piercing things on our body.  But I have branched out more.  Ciara only has things on her ears pierced where as I have them all over my body.  But the only other things I would actually do would be on my ears.  I haven't exactly told Seth about this piercing so it should be interesting when he gets off work and comes to see me.  I did tell him that I had a surprise for him but I would not give him any hints!!! So he will probably be expecting something totally different.

On a different note, Seth and I will have been together for 3 months on December 19th and it has been an amazing three months.  I honestly can't imagine how my life would be if he wasn't in my life.  I know that may sound a little premature but its true.  I need to come up with some really good things for him for Christmas. The one big thing I would like to have would be a song just because it feel like its cute and every time you hear it you immediately think of that person not that he isn't already always on my mind. So I'd love some suggestions cause I've listened to the radio and my I-pod over and over again and haven't found anything that it is really good enough.  Its gotta sum us up! I know you don't know us that well but I would still take the suggestions that you think would be good for a couple! Thanks guys!! I honestly don't know why I'm so tired but I am so I'm gonna watch some sort of TV show so that I can stay awake especially since its only almost 9 o'clock.

Counting down the days til Christmas Break

I'm so ready for my first semester to be over! I'm really needing a break for three or four weeks, which is Christmas Break! I only have this week and next of classes and then a week of exams and I'm done!! YAY!!! I have a project for english that I just finished and I'm all caught up in all of my classes except for Art so I feel pretty accomplished and am taking the rest of the night to relax.  Seth has like two tests and two quizzes this week so I saw him for like 2 hours last night and I'm nor sure that I'll see him at all since he has two test tomorrow! So I'm praying for him as I relax and feel like I should be doing some work for something but my brain just doesn't want to let me do that! It is tired and wants to relax and listen to music. If only I was one of those people that could listen to music and read but unfortunately I'm not.  Ciara is not doing anything either which makes me feel a little better and Lexi has been procrastinating and now has a 5 page single-spaced paper to write by thursday I think and eventually Ciara is gonna have to do a video that is due tonight at midnight! Oh college students and waiting until the last minute to do things! We all seem to get worse and worse and the semester goes along.  I'm continuing to try to get into a different Communications class so I'm hoping that one will open up over Christmas when people drop out of just change their mind about how many hours they actually want to take.
So I have an exam on Monday, Wednesday, and Friday of the second week of December and then the semester is over and I can enjoy my break because I will have nothing to do.  Seth and I can just enjoy each other and I'm sure we will meet each other's extended family.  Oh college life is so amazing because unlike high school you have nothing hanging over you head because your classes are over and you already have your grades.  Hopefully I will be doing really well. Right now I'm at an A or very very close so I just need to do well on exams and do everything I can to keep me grades where they are in my classes that I don't have exams.  So I'm a little stressed if you can't tell but focusing on one day at a time is really helping! I can do this!!! I just need to be confident in myself!

November 21st, 2011

So today I have been in a relationship with Seth Barnett for over two months! For some reason I decided that today I wanted my title to be today's date!! I only have one more day of school and then I'm home until Sunday for Thanksgiving! It's going to be a crazy couple of days because I'm going to Seth's house on either Tuesday or Wednesday night to hang out, and then Thanksgiving with my family and perhaps his as well on Thursday and then Friday and Saturday I'm off to Hendersonville to spend time with my amazing best friend Katie!! And then Sunday is church and heading back to school! I have a feeling this break is going to be over before I even have had a chance to enjoy it! I'm going to have to get work done during the day because I can definitely see from my planning that nothing is going to happen at night! I will either be out or just way to tired to even function!

I have really gotten a lot accomplished in this past week though so that I don't have much to do! The only thing I have to do over Thanksgiving Break is read for art and everything that goes along with that and do a Video Blog for my Clemson Connect crap that is required for Freshman.  That's not too bad! I mean considering all that I could have to do! I'm going to get my art pictures labeled tonight and then I have some final touches to put on my sociology paper that's due tomorrow!!! Not too bad considering all that I have accomplished since Thursday: art test, art workbook, art reading, sociology paper, final touches on English paper, biology reading, and two math assignments! Oh the joys of college!!!

Well I'm off to print some stuff of for all my classes! I'll catch you guys later! Try to write again and let you know how my Thanksgiving Break is going!

So much to be thankful for!

So November is a very busy month for me! Seth's birthday is November 8th and our 2 month anniversary is November 19th.  And then there is Thanksgiving and of course college never gives me a break!!  But it is worth it all because I get to be with someone who truly cares about me and will be with be through anything.  Like last night! We went out to celebrate for his birthday and on our way back to campus, we wrecked. A man hit a deer and just kept going! Well she decided to lay down in the middle of the road and Seth swerved to miss her.  He hit a ditch and we flipped twice in the air before coming to land right side up thank goodness!!! We are soo very lucky that we were not hurt worse!! Thank goodness! But what makes me really happy is that I know I can depend on him because when we landed the first thing Seth did was check on me! He made sure that I was alright before he checked himself and the car! The car looks pretty bad and will be considered totaled of course since the back end is beyond messed up and lots of the glass is broken! We are so very very thankful and Seth and I have really been through it all together now! I don't know what I would have done without him. He made it soo much better and knowing that we are both safe is all that we can ask.  The bruises and my shoulder will heal.  We were both so worried about each other! And the wreck just happened so fast I'm not sure exactly what happened.  All I know is that the car flipped because I was there for it at least once but then I closed my eyes and put my life in the hands of God! And we were beyond blessed to be able to land right side up and be able to get out! I know I keep saying the same thing but if you had been through what I had you would be a little confused! God wants Seth and I here for a reason!!! I have no doubt about that! But anyways, this will make our two month anniversary that but better cause we are both here and can celebrate together!!

You Lie!!!

It ain't complicated
Well I've grown to hate it
I never liked the taste of crow
But baby I ate it
They tried to warn me
They said that you were ornery
So don't bring me those big brown eyes
and tell me that you're sorry
Well you might as well throw gasoline on a fire

The way you lie
You lie like a priceless Persian rug on 
a rich man's floor
and you lie like a coon dog basking
in the sunshine on my porch
Well you lie like a penny in a parking
lot at the grocery store
It just comes way too natural to you
The way you lie

That ain't my perfume, I bet she had a curfew
You told me you were out with the boys and
baby I believed you
So why you lookin' so nervous
You know you kind of deserve this
I ought to kill you right now
And do the whole wide world a service
Well my daddy's gonna straighten you out
Like a piece of wire, like a piece of wire

The way you lie
You lie like the man with the slicked back
hair who sold me that Ford
Yeah you lie like a pine tree in the back yard
after last month's storm
Well you lie like a penny in a parking lot at
the grocery store
It just comes way too natural to you
The way you lie

Well I tell you what I'm gonna do
I'm gonna drive to the big old muddy river
I'm gonna park my car in the middle of the
mile long bridge
And there I'm gonna cry
Well maybe just a little
Then I'm gonna slip off the ring
that you put on my finger
And give it a big old fling and watch it sink
Down, down, down
And there it's gonna lie until the Lord
comes back around

Because you lie like a priceless Persian rug on 
a rich man's floor
You lie like a coon dog basking
in the sunshine on my porch
Well you lie like a penny in a parking
lot at the grocery store
It just comes so dang natural to you
The way you lie

The way you lie
Well it's what you do, it's who you are




This is one of my favorite songs ever written!! It is amazing! I mean I have known lots of guys in my life because I just get along with them better than girls! You know what I'm saying!  I just had to write about it on here because I tell you guys everything and it needs to be recognized that I'm a country girl.  I love country music with everything that I have! It sums up my life pretty well especially with my accent according to everyone else! I personally don't think that it is that bad but I mean you can't really hear yourself! So anyways, my boyfriend doesn't seem to mind it too much and everyone else thinks it is hilarious and loves me anyways or just doesn't really say anything about it! So anyways that's all I wanted to say! Hope everyone is having an amazing day! 

Oct. 21st 2011 - One month and counting...

Seth and I have been together for a month now and I'm beyond happy! It's amazing! That feeling that you get when you see that person again and you just know that they are yours! Ugh! Unfortunately we have to have a talk tonight after our movie on how far our relationship is going to go! We both have already made the decision to wait until marriage but I need to know how close he expects to get to that before we are married.  There are certain things that I just won't do and probably not even when I'm married! So anyways I have to start that conversation somehow and I just ain't looking forward to it.  So we are off to a movie tonight and dinner and then I have to come back to Clemson and do some more reading for my online art class.  Hopefully I will be able to get a little bit of quiet time in my room even though I won't be back in my room until 11 or so! :) Gotta enjoy my time with my man! By the way, I met all of Seth's friends on Monday when we went to Frankie's Fun Park. Yeah! Carowinds was closed so we went here instead because he really wanted me to meet them and I love them all.  Especially his one girlfriend Anna.  We have soo much in common.  She has very few girlfriends and as do I. For some reason, I don't get along with girls too well.  Except for Katie, Ciara, and Shelby.  But both Ciara and Shelby are more like guys just like me!  And Anna is very similar.  I was most nervous to meet her because I knew that she was important to Seth and I didn't want us to not get along because that would cause lots of problems!

So I'm off to straighten my hair because Seth will be here at 6! Love you all!