Feeling so much better!

Today I was able to go to the C.O.W. Project for part of the day and help paint a fence. I was exhausted by 11:30 since I haven't been able to do anything since Saturday so it was an experience and now I just want to be completely back to normal.  Tonight, the youth had bible study at Mama Kristy's and so we got to swim for an hour or so and then had a 30 minute lesson given by Brandon. It is all about how much we have done and how much we have left to do this week. The purpose of the C.O.W. Project is to complete tasks in our community and help out those that are around us who are in need or just want someone to listen. I was so involved in high school with anything that involved the community or others so this is just the perfect thing to kick off me going to Clemson! I will know that I did one final thing before my life became so busy that I just couldn't focus on anything but school and clubs and family and of course my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. It makes it all the more amazing to know all this.

So swimming tonight was really fun and I had an amazing time with everyone especially Zach, Landon's good friend, Bree, one of my best friends, and Landon, my brother. Of course everyone else just makes the party louder and more of a good time. Ashley and her boyfriend Thomas are finally becoming part of our youth group and everyone is so happy to have them because they have been kind of distant. It was funny to watch as they just fit right in like they had been doing this for a really long time and not just for a day or maybe two.

I'm enjoying the rest of my summer and learning from my mistakes! Sometimes I open my mouth and I wish that I could just shut it right back because something stupid always comes out. Tomorrow I have to fix something that I said and hope that she knows that I was kidding. I said something that I should have kept to myself and now I feel like I need to take it back because I was only joking but sometimes its really hard to tell and I don't want someone else to suffer for what I said. It could happen if I don't fix this. I hate confrontations and I wish I could learn to just stay quiet and watch as other people do their thing. Why do I always have to say something or make a really tense situation not funny and just worse for everyone else? Well that has to be the one thing that I hate most about myself!

Anyways, overall, was a good day especially since I got out of the house!