Love Interest

So guys I really can't talk to any of my friends about this besides my best friend Katie who knows all the thorny details. So I'm going to tell u! His name is Seth.  He goes to Clemson University with me and the first time we met all I could see was that he was awfully short for a guy! But he has really grown on me so much to the point that I'm considering letting him be my first kiss, which is a really big deal for me.  I have waited a long time because I wanted it to mean something and even though my hormones are telling me that I want to do it, I know that I could see a future with him! I would actually be willing to give up heels, even though I love them sooo much because that will make me taller than him.  You guys might think why would someone want to be with someone who is barely taller than you?  I can't explain the feeling I get from him.  It is a mixture between hatred and complete commitment.  It is one of the strangest things but I know that we would be good together because that's the way marriage should be. At least in my eyes! I feel really bad keeping this from everyone but they all seem to think that they don't see us together or they just don't like him in general.  How to do you tell someone that feels that way?  I've decided to wait until Seth and I make a decision to tell anyone and I may not even tell them then.  Cause I could really care less what they have to say.

We were supposed to have the room to ourselves tonight because my roommate, Ciara, has this DJ thing to go to but now my friend Lexi is here and I don't want to be mean but I really wanted the time with Seth.  We were going to talk about our relationship, since I know that he likes me because he talks about me to my friend Bree, who thinks we just don't fit together.  I wanted to cuddle and let him know that I feel the same way and want something to come out of this.  But how do you do that with someone else in the room? We have sat together on the love sac together but there is always someone here and I wanted him to sit with me on the love sac and hold me like he can't do any other time.  I wanted a kiss!

Anyways, if it doesn't happen maybe it is meant to wait! We will see how the night goes! Keep ya posted.