Strong even though I'm hurt!

So last time I told you to remind me to tell you about what has happened with Raymond since my relationship.  For those of you who don't know, Raymond is my BEST guy friend in this world.  I honestly know that I can trust him with everything that I am.  He has become such a big part of my life in such a short time that I sometimes wonder if he was not put there to pull me through everything that I was about to face: my faith being tested, trusting guys again with my heart, and everything that college life entails. So when I started to like Seth I knew that Raymond and I were just meant to be best friends and I felt beyond blessed to have been given someone like him.  I mean I have Katie and Bree and Ciara but Raymond is running a close second behind Katie..... I never thought anyone would come close to her.  But it took him not even 2 months to become important so the last I wanted to do was hurt him.  But apparently I have.  Apparently, he was hoping that more was going to come out this relationship that we started.  However, I'm with Seth and Raymond may be older than me but he is still in high school. He had to learn English at the age of 10 and therefore he and his twin, Richard, had to be held back! Not that that changes anything about how I feel.  So Raymond likes me and I told him about me and Seth because I didn't want him reading it on Facebook and everything changed!  He backed off and stopped talking to me the way he had and I haven't gotten a hug from him since. There is nothing like one of Raymond's hugs. He hugs you so tight that you can't breathe but at the same time you don't want it to stop!

Things seem to be getting better but I want him to hold me like only he can.  Seth likes to cuddle but Raymond just hugs me and tells me that he loves me! And I love him too! He is amazing and he is going to make someone an amazing husband! :) So I'm trying to be strong and not let him know how much it hurts me and how much I want things to go back to the way they were but then I wouldn't have Seth and besides Raymond and my daddy, he is the most important man in my life!

Someone tell me that it's going to be okay! That's what I need right now and also tell me what to do! I being serious. I really need some input!